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Its been awhile. I suddenly had a spark to write in this thing. so weird. my last post was a little eerie. i think i was going through too much. my poor brain. i have, since then, grabbed much better control of myself. my birthday was amazing, i was offered two jobs after i came back from vegas and i was able to reconnect with some people from my past that i missed dearly.

for the months that i had been absent... it didnt mean i didnt write at all. i have a notebook full of pages. unspoken words i would say. feelings that know one knew i harbored. i died... and then, i was reborn again. i was depressed for a very long time. obsessed. pissed. i threw things, i broke things. i got rid of things that needed to go. and i wrote. i let out my fears, my true feelings from the deep darkness of my heart. i released.

and then i fell out of love.

i miss... but im not in love. i love... i care. but im not in love.

i miss one of my best friends. but im learning how to cope. as long as that person is happy, and im happy... thats all that matters. and i am. for once. finally. i can say im happy with me. and its the best feeling in the world <3