On to other things, i will be at the happiest place on earth tomorrow. haha, yes, Disneyland. and Lord knows i need some happiness in my life! Im going with my girls jackie and valerie and i couldnt be more excited. its been awhile since we've been able to just hang out without worrying about anything. actually, i'll be having two doses of the happiest place on earth, haha. my mom wants to go for her birthday, so it looks like i'll be going tomorrow AND on the 18th :] gotta love that a grown ass woman still gets enjoyment out of going to disney :] not only that but she demanded that we go to red lobster. damn those commercials. everytime she sees one, she runs into my room and stares at me like "we're going damnit!"

Speaking of mothers, im on a quest to find her birthstone in a simple ring. we saw one on tv the other day... liquidationchannel.com ... and well, duh liquidation, all that shit is on auction, so my dumbass thinking i could find it online, didnt. but when my mom saw it on tv, her eyes lit up, and she fell in love. so im thinking, i havent really gotten anything for my mom for her birthday in awhile, so i figure i can get her this and she'll love it :] the one pictured is one that i found that is VERY simular to the one we saw on tv. simple, white gold but this one has four gems instead of just three. I think she'll like it. I was thinking of getting her studs or something, but i think she would enjoy the ring more, since thats what she saw on tv in the first place. can we say spoiled mommy this year for her bday? yes we can. but she deserves it :D and really? its not that bad. i can get the ring for like 70-100 bucks, i think i can make that happen. might ask the stepdad's help on this one, though haha. Screw it. Happy birthday and mother's day with this one ;]
So, i figured, this is the semester of learning whos there for you and who isnt. geez, i dropped one friend lets hope i dont need to drop anymore. too much on the heart.

Speaking of the heart, its amazing what the beach can do to heal it. So what if it was raining and cold yesterday? lol i bundled myself up, took a blanket and went down to Huntington Beach. I must say it was exactly what i needed after the past two weeks of my life. i was able to just let go, write a
couple of pages in my journal and read :] and well,then it started to rain again and i high tailed my ass outta there. needless to say, theres sand

stuck all up and down my ugg boots :/ but either way the waves were beautiful, the sand was sandy and there were birds a plently. it was actually kind of amusing to see them all lined up in the sand, a group on one side and a group on the other. looked like they were about to go to war with each other. and then all of a sudden i had millions of birds flying ahead, so i prayed that i wouldnt get a surpise on my Janet hoodie, lol.
Anyways, i guess im done rambling for the day. til next time loves :*