I'm finally learning how to do that. My friend and I, we were only in a
relationship for two months before he decided it just wasn't going to
work. It hurt because I felt like he didn't try. I felt like it was only
a couple of months in, how would you even know. But I guess it was
better sooner or later before we really got into something... the crazy
thing is he wanted to be friends, and it was something that kind of
outraged me. But as I sit here and really think about it and his reasons
for wanting to save the friendship rather then go down a distructive
path I completely understand. More then I allowed myself to see. We're
so much alike, more then we knew. We both rather be not with a person,
than to be without. To be more blunt, if we can't make a relationship
work, we rather still stay in each others lives as friends then to
completely lose each other all together.

Still even within that, there's different views. Me and him are both
libras. We're known as peace makers. The way he makes peace is by
avoiding conflict all together and stopping things before they can even
get bad. My way of peace is to throw shit to the wind, because at least
I know I tried, and if there's conflict later down the line, then you
make peace of that. But in the same way, to keep peace, we both agree we
don't want to lose each other completely and we rather be friends then
nothing at all. Its nice to finally have some one that sees the same
views, although slightly different but all the same.

Things are gonna be good though. I wanted to try because it was
something I wanted in general. To be loved, to have a commitment and
because of that I was blinded by the fact that I already knew it wasn't
going to work. It wasn't going to work because there were warning sighs
that I wanted to ignore. We are so much the same, but very different. He
finds something and is happy with it.. A very content person. Me on the
other hand I like to be on the go, always finding something new and
amusing to do. I can't stay in one place for every long. So even though
I wanted it really bad with him, sometimes everything a person wants
isn't exactly what is good for them, or will actually work.

I see us being really good friends, and probably nothing more. But no
expectations, no dissapointment. I hold no regards and whatever happens,
happens <3